Turning

So, today I'm struggling with some things I really have never been faced with before.
God has told me to mister in a place that I just don't want to go. I thought I did about a week and a half ago, but.. that was a week and a half ago. God also changed my heart, and turned my attitude away from this. I suppose that is one of the lessons God wants to teach me. That I need to learn to be content wherever He places me.

furthermore, I am struggling with jealousy. A friend of mine is exactly where I want to minister, and where I have wanted to minister for quite some time now. Isn't it funny how I have never had a problem with jealousy over possessions and abilities (well, to a certain extent), but now that it's over place of ministry, I'm just green with envy?

You may wonder why I am so quick to explain all my faults on the www. Well, quite frankly, I don't care what people think of me. (Well, I do care about what my friends think of me, but I am what I am.. I'm not going to cover up sin). We all have our downfalls, and what better way to try to get through them than to scream them out in public? This way, my brothers and sisters, you can watch out for me, and can help me get back on track.

Funny, yesterday I was reading in 1 Peter about suffering. I thought about how I never have suffered, and I asked God to show me a little pain if it would bring me closer to Him. I wouldn't call this pain, but I would call it a rough patch that I will have to pray about to get through. I'm always finding new ways the Lord can grow us.

"arm yourselves" with suffering.
"Rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed" (1 Peter 4:13)
"So then, those who suffer according to God's will should commit themselves to their faithful Creator and continue to do good." (1 Peer 4:19)

So.. arm yourselves with suffering. Let it find you as you look to others' best interests, rather than your own. Be focused on christ, and be open to His will.

Love,
Lauren