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You know what really stinks?

When people don't answer back your texts. I mean, it is the worst. devastation, at it's simplest.
Seriously, how self absorbed are we? I saw this because it actually crossed my mind that I should put something the effect of "not receiving text responses is the worst" as my facebook status.

I mean, number one, it's a text, dude. Number two, facebook? Why does modern technology have such an effect on my life? Gee, maybe it's just me, but it seems like a lot of people are similarly influenced by these modern conveniences.

I don't want to be so self absorbed anymore. Why can't I live out Galations 2:20 the way I should? I have been crucified with christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. I don't think that I act like Christ very much.

And, what a fail, what with the whole texting thing. "oh me, oh my, Billy Bob* must be ignoring me!" I'm pretty sure I ignore Christ a lot more often than others ignore me. It's time I drop my petty complications at His feet, and truly take up my cross.

I'm tired of doing things for myself, and thinking of who I am, and what I am going to do, and starting every line of every one of my songs out with the word I.

Lord, I am weak and broken, and I take your beauty and distort it and twist it around everyday. Allow me to give up myself to the good of humankind. Let me fight for love, and live to die. For to live is Christ, and to die is gain. Let that verse become truth in my life. Reveal its significance both in my words and actions, Father. I love you.

~Lauren



*There is no actual Billy Bob. This name was given for the protection of those to whom this situation applies.