vows

God has called us all to commitments great and small. Lately I have felt it upon my heart that God wants me to consider making a new rule for myself: that I will not hang out with boys alone. Ever. If there is more that one person involved, then yes, but no, not one boy. I have come to realize that being alone with people can cause the imagination to wander. I don't want my imagination to wander ever again; God has called me to be his child and pray for thoughts and imaginative activity that will honor Him. I feel that I will be in a much more Godly place if I spend my time with groups of people or God alone.

While I may have been called make this vow, God has impressed upon me how terribly difficult it will be to uphold. It will be extremely inconvenient, and although I am willing to take inconvenience, I must also consider whether or not it will be possible for me to follow this rule. So easily we can allow ourselves to be put in this sort of setting, as it is a rather common one. Keeping myself from all situations where there is one other boy involved will require me to be on my guard 24/7. I will also have to decide on actual boundaries, so everything is clearly defined for myself and others.

I have learned that in order to make this commitment, I must put as much effort into making the decision as I do fulfilling it. This will require much prayer and many talks with others. Who knows how long it will take? But, I must put my faith in God, and whatever choice He leads me to make must be upheld. What is God calling you to do?